~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~[NOTE: This blog appeared on this website that was lost due to previous web hosting issue. This was recovered from backup files and is included on this newer website version]
That image of a wacked-out oddball artist who may be psychologically affected and almost totally dysfunctional in the ordinary world, myopic and obsessed to the detriment of everyone else around them and a drug crazed alcoholic nightmare of a human being spiraling down to the inevitable crash and the final lights out ending of the tragic. These things are, to many people, some of the demons that true artistic people are tortured with.
…and there it is …that term, "Tortured Artist". It is the mental picture of the creative person kept alive in movies and media. With history, as well as the tabloid stars today providing unlimited examples of the reality of the sensitive soul struggling with issues like what I have mentioned. These problems that would cripple the 'normal' people but within our stereotype it is the fuel and inertia of the Great Artist to reach beyond the normal and into that superior plane of artistic achievement open to the Gifted One. I'm guessing, you have named some of those artists in your mind already.
I would not want to disrespect any person who struggles with these kinds of real world challenges in their day to day life. Instead I join with others who applaud the brave endurance that many achieve under hard circumstances. It is mentioned as a contrast to how ordinary I feel compared to that image. Nobody really wants to be called 'ordinary' but the more I see the rest of humanity the more I think I am quite ordinary and similar to what might be called the 'norm'.
I have watched many of the art 'reality' shows and am always amazed at the interesting contestants that show up there. One for instance I am watching now is Art Star (2006). Especially interesting is the casting call where a flood of unique artists array themselves before the cameras in their regalia of persona.
I am sure that I am much too ordinary and normal to get anybody's attention in something like that (other than laughter attention) although several years ago I was wondering if I had to take on some sort of outrageous costume-like persona that would be over the top but fake as the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow or not in order to fit-in to the Art World.
I decided I didn't need to be anyone other than myself because it is way too much work and a huge distraction from what I really want to do, which is to produce good art and live some kind of a meaningful life with my family. So however others perceive me and my work, the spirit I created this website in is, I am just myself and you are invited to find out more about what that means here. I have enough confidence in myself that I know I can do any kind of artwork I want to and don't have to have a cheering section to do it. I don't feel the need to fit-in to any artificial group or world if I have to disguise myself. My art comes from within …not from without. I think most artists are actually this way also.
I have had contact with many of artists from different arenas of life and most of them actually seem quite ordinary and normal, which may mean different things to different people but the one thing they all seem to have in common is that they are passionate about their art like I am and want nothing more than to be able to make art as they see it, share it, hope others like it and make some more.
So there you have it, you may not be able to pick me out of a crowd but I hope that you will be able to spot my artwork if you ever see it in the wild! Right now you can see it here and by the way,